Not Meant to Be

Sitting here I am trying to write this post. Not easy for me to do. This is going to be the hardest update for me to write.

Late Friday night I had a miscarriage. I do not have too much to say about this other than I trust God to know what is best. I am physically fine and while the whole experience has been unpleasant and very sad there was really no pain. I think the most traumatic moment of this whole thing (after fully understanding what was happening)was my somewhat brief trip to the ER. I learned the very hard lesson that my ER does not give a crap if you are bleeding all over the waiting room floor.

Suffice it to say that I left the ER so I would not be further humiliated and could go through this process in the privacy of my home. I was in contact with my doctors office and I am happy I made this decision. To all those who will read this I will go and see my own doctor tomorrow for a complete check.

Kevin and I are sad that we have had this experience but are very grateful that we have two wonderful, healthy, precious boys and that I am doing okay physically and emotionally.